the past couple of days has been emotionally hard. i have to remind myself that it’s never about me, never was to begin with. there’s been a lot of family stuff going on, it’s been 4 months since my grandmother passed away since yesterday, and Gods increasing my love for people. he’s stretching it. definitely. not trying throw a pity party here. 

more than anything, i hate gossip and rumors. i despise it and matter infact, the bible teaches it that it is sin to gossip among each other. it’s not cool. at all. so stop gossiping and bringing unnecessary division with people. it’s not attractive. i find character to me, is so important. you can have your life together, going forth into your destiny and calling, doing ministry, work, and etc but if character isn’t there, it’s just dead. i don’t want to shuffle myself in a place where i’m not suppose to be but too many times it happens that way doesn’t it? but no one is perfect no one will be. it’s something we must strive for in our lives. we must die to ourselves every single day. because, it’s never about us. loving people is so hard but it’s so necessary. 

lord, continue to stretch my heart and love. give me patience. i need it. but more than anything i need you more and more in my life. i ask for peace and love to reign. instill shalom over me daddy.